Tuesday, July 19, 2016

when your world just stops

We received a dreaded phone call from our pediatrician on July 13th.  I had just finished feeding Max and so I let my phone go to voicemail.  We had just had a pediatrician visit the prior day and Max was doing so wonderful that we were told to not come back until Max was one month old.  Max was born at a weight of 8lbs 8oz and at the pediatrician appointment his weight had only dropped to 8lbs 5oz.  He was perfect.  The pediatrician repeated this a handful of times during the appointment.  So needless to say my heart dropped to my feet when I listened to the voicemail message from the pediatrician.  The message still exists on my phone.  I can't seem to delete it.

"Good Morning Ladies.  It's Dr. Y.  I was calling to check on Maxwell.  I got one of his state screen tests back and I want to talk to you about it.  So I'll try some of your other telephone #s.  If you get this message please call the office and ask to speak to me ASAP."

That's the moment the world just kind of stopped for us.

I glanced over at my newborn son who was sleeping peacefully with a belly full of milk and remember thinking "Huh?  He's perfect."

We immediately called back our pediatrician and we were told that Max had an elevated level, on the state of Ohio newborn screen, for a fatty acid oxidation disorder (FOD).  We were told to take Max immediately to an off campus lab for Nationwide Children's Hospital (NCH) and have an acylcarnitine profile done on Max.  We were also told that we could not let Max go any longer than 4 hours without eating.  The pediatrician reassured us that it was very common to have a false positive on the newborn screen and that there was currently no need to worry.  

The state of Ohio newborn screen tests for 36 rare to very rare genetic disorders that can be found in a newborn.  These genetic disorders are screened on all newborns because if a disorder is caught ASAP then an infant has a chance at survival.  Otherwise many infants, with one of these diseases, often die because parents do not know that their child is affected with a disorder.

So off we went with our 6 day old son to have bloodwork done to check particular levels of fatty acids.  Max did a wonderful job.  It was simple prick of the heel where there simply collected a few drops of blood.  We were told the results would come back in 24 - 48 hours.

My phone rang on July 15th @ 8am and I knew immediately in my heart that this was not going to be a good phone call.  The results were still abnormal.  An appointment had been scheduled for us on July 18th (stupid weekend wait) @ 10am with the genetics department at NCH.  It was also reiterated to us again that we must not let Max go more than 4 hours without eating.

No problem.  This will be a great weekend.

I never asked the pediatrician for the name of the specific disorder.  I knew I would Google it and I was determined to let a qualified physician give me information instead of the Internet.  I did know however from the Internet that the state of Ohio newborn screen tested for approximately 9 different FODs.

We met with the Chief of the Genetics Department at NCH on July 15th.  I remember thinking to myself about a hundred times during the appointment, "We got an appointment with the Chief of the Genetics Department at the 4th largest pediatric hospital in the country in (technically) less than 24 hours.  This must be serious."   The physician also gave us his business card and told us to call him direct 24/7.  Ok.  Serious.

The newborn screen showed that Max has an elevated C16 level which indicates a + result for either Carnitine Acylcarnitine Translocase deficiency (CACT) OR Carnitine Acylcarnitine Translocase deficiency Type II (CPT-II).  The physician quickly iterated that he could not confirm that Max has either disorder simply via the newborn screen.  There are 150k babies born in the state of Ohio each year and a newborn is diagnosed with one of these disorders every 2 or 3 years.  So it is VERY RARE.  It is a recessive genetic disorder which would mean that both myself and the donor would have to have a broken copy of the gene.  And then any offspring would have a 25% chance of receiving both broken copies of the gene and approximately 1 in 3,000 people are a carrier for this disorder.  So basically it's like hitting a really bad jackpot.  The team at NCH initially did a statistical analysis based on Max's blood test results where his C16 levels were compared to all babies that had previously received a + newborn screen for these disorders in Ohio and approximately 7 other states.  A lot of times, if a blood test result is low enough, then Max could easily be deemed "not affected" by the disorder and the physician would close the case.  But Max's blood test result were in a "gray area" where some babies were eventually diagnosed with the disorder and some babies were eventually found to not have the disorder.  So the physician suggested completing a DNA test on Max that would tell us with 100% certainty whether or not Max received 2 broken copies of the gene and is thus impacted with either disorder.  It will take 3 weeks for us to get results of the DNA test.

The greatest risks associated with the disease occur if Max would have any period of fasting.  Both of these disorders interfere with the body's ability to turn fat into energy.  This can cause low blood sugar, seizures, extreme weakness, difficulty breathing, and heart damage should Max go into any period of fasting from food.  Because it is common, with an illness of any type, for a child to lose his or her appetite, we received, a letter from the physician that we can present to any ER should Max go a period of time without eating.  Max would receive immediate attention (ie.  go to the front of the line) with the specific treatment protocol outlined in the letter.

We will begin working closely with NCH should Max be officially diagnosed with either disorder.  We are, however, optimistic that the DNA tests will come back negative and we will be able to put this nightmare behind us.

And just as a side note Max was a trooper during the blood draw for the DNA testing.  The lab tech had to was unable to get blood from the initial stick and unfortunately another tech had to try in the other arm.  I think I cried more then Mr. Max.  I was a mess.

Mary

welcome to the world

Maxwell Jude
July 8, 2016 @ 6:46 PM
8 lbs 8 oz
19 1/2 inches

Baby Max was born, via induction, at 39w1d.

I will get the birth story posted ASAP.

Mary
 

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

38w5d

Can you believe it?

We are at t-minus 72 hours until our scheduled induction.  I am in complete shock that I did not go into labor on my own.  And slightly disappointed ...

There are so many feelings at the moment.  The anxiety is extremely high.  I am anxious about the induction process in general.  I worried that something will be wrong and baby boy will still have to go to the NICU.  I'm worried about my ability to effectively manage the pain that tends to be increased with the induction of labor.  I'm worried about being able to avoid a c-section.  I'm worried about Jakob and Alex.  We can tell them a bazillion times that their baby brother will be coming home this week but I know they don't really "grasp" it.  I worry about our ability to adapt to our new life.  I worry about sleepless newborn nights.  I worry about breastfeeding.  I worry about putting too much stress on Kara.  I worry about Kara's overall health.  I worry about my ability to heal quickly so that I can finally go back to being a good Mama to Jakob and Alex (and of course baby boy).  I worry about returning to work in only 6 or 8 short weeks.  I have worked tirelessly for months to get a team member trained on my day to day responsibilities but I worry so much about her ability to get the job done.  So  many worries... No wonder I don't sleep much at night.

I have my final NST test at the hospital today (38w5d) and then I have my final OB appointment tomorrow (38w6d) and then our induction is currently scheduled for 8am ET on July 8th (39w1d).  The induction time could get moved up by several hours if a spot becomes available at the hospital.  

So here we go...

Mary    

Friday, June 24, 2016

37w1d

We made it to TERM!!  That alone deserves an entire post.  I reflect on the conversations Kara and I had in January 2016 when we both thought I was going to miscarry this pregnancy at 12+ weeks.  And then all the fears we had surrounding the possibility of another preterm birth.  My mind is blown and my heart is exploding with happiness.  I know there is always still many risks associated with pregnancy so I cannot completely relax.  But I am simply grateful for this accomplishment.  And we cannot wait to meet our little boy in less than 2 weeks.

So what is new ... NOT A LOT.   I had an OB appointment this week and I am 3cm dilated and the baby is launched and loaded for departure!!  But that can mean absolutely nothing.  I continue to have periods of contractions.  I had an episode of regular contractions this past weekend from about 10pm - 3:45am and then they just fizzled out.  But I believe those contractions might have been a result of Baby Boy dropping lower in my pelvis.  I have definitely lost my mucous plug too.  But that also means nothing.  So we just continue to wait, wait, wait ... He still has an eviction date at 39 weeks.  So we do have less than 2 weeks left in this pregnancy.   I continue to have NSTs and Baby Boy is doing wonderful at those appointments.

I am super uncomfortable all of the time.  I have periods of rather uncomfortable contractions.  I had a massive contraction during the NST yesterday (like off the charts) and the nurse was like, "Did you feel that?" .... Really?  Yep.  I felt that!  What do you think?  I still have heartburn like crazy.  My patience is very limited all the time.  Kara and I are just both simply on edge.  Just waiting to continue the next chapter of our lives and not sure exactly when that will happen.  And it unfortunately trickles down to the boys who have both been acting out like crazy.  I think we all need a break from one another.  I know that Kara needs a break.  I just wish I could give it to her.  But I cannot.  So we truck along.  We apologize to one another when things get rough and just take it day by day.  I am so grateful for my amazing little family.

So let's see what next week brings...

Mary

Friday, June 17, 2016

36w1d

• I am now 36w1d pregnant.

• I had an OB appointment at 36w0d.  I am STILL 2cm dilated (no shocker).  My platelets came back at 137k which is a bit lower than the 142 k from about 28 weeks and a bit lower than the normal range of 150 k – 450 k but still over the 100 k required to get an epidural.  So there is not too much of a concern at the moment.  The hospital will check my platelets again once I go into labor.  I am STREP B negative.  So no antibiotics during labor!!  And my TSH came back at 1.6 so I do not have to worry about changing my synthroid dosage until after delivery of baby boy.  The appointment was otherwise uneventful.  I go back next week.

• I got my final P17 injection!!!  (there is a part of me that believes these shots are keeping little boy in my belly)  I had a total of 23 injections over the course of the pregnancy.  I’m so grateful that I was approved, by my insurance company, for the shots.  It brought so much peace of mind.  But my BUTT is so glad they are done!!

• I am now going to the MFM 2x a week for a NST.  And baby boy passed with flying colors.

• Both the nurse at the NST and the OB mentioned that baby boy had a lower than normal (for him) heart rate.  It has always been between 140 bpm – 160 bpm and at the OB appointment it was 122 bpm, at my P17 appointment it was 128 bpm, and during the NST it never got above 141 bpm (and that was an acceleration point).  Anyhow both the OB and nurse mentioned that a lower than “normal” heart rate are signs of (1) running out of room and (2) nearing labor.  I’m going to go with option (1) because while I was worried about preterm labor for so long I now believe baby boy would love to hangout in my belly for another 6 months!!

• I am analyzing every symptom as a possible “symptom of labor” and it is starting to drive me CRAZY.  I am OK with baby boy making his arrival at anytime now.  I know that 37 weeks would be the ideal scenario but I will not lie … I AM DONE!  I am not able to sleep at night.  I am uncomfortable all the time.  The physical limitations are starting to wear on me.  I am carrying a full term baby (estimated at close to 8lbs now).  I have heartburn all the time.  I cannot focus at work.  I cannot get comfortable at work.  The baby has dropped low into my pelvis with basically feels like carrying a bowling ball between my legs at all time.  Any kick feels like a bruise to my ribs.  Is it possible for him to break a rib?  Haha.  

• We still have an eviction date of July 7th.  

Mary